I rented 3 movies on impulse. Hah. I usually rent 3 at one shot. 'All That Jazz' is still ringing in my head. So I do like to slack, be a couch potato and chatting online with friends. It's a loser act, in my opinion. I despise people who boast about their parents wealth, because the fact is that he is poor. He who got a job with the help of his parents, are almost useless on his own. I'm blunt, but don't you think so? I want to make it on my own, of course, with God that is, I will use my own money to buy myself a vehicle, an accomodation, and my CDS!!!!!! hahaha

:)

7:38 AM

I went for tuition with this k1 kid today. It wasn't that bad, though the mother sounded fishing hostile on the phone. The kid is darn cute. His name is Caian. So niceeee. I'll name my sons Canaan and Zachariah, that's if I ever change my mind and decide to get married in erm like gazillion decades time. Baaah.

Oh well. This means that I lied to my manager to get away from work. Which makes me darn guilty. Last night I msged him to inform him that I'll have to report late for work. He said [ Can... but don't make it a habit can? ] I thought I sensed some grudge in his reply, so I expected him to be angry with me today when I report for work. As I headed to the storeroom, I saw him standing outside the store, beside the player. Then he saw me and greeted me with that usual cheeky look on his face.

"Mei nu ............ .. .. (that's how he address all his female staff) "

Then I looked at him and felt a lil paiseh.

"Chi fan le mei you? Hai mei you chi kuai dian qu chi. I'm okay one lo. Du zi er jiu qu chi lor....."

I shook my head and said I'm not hungry yet.

That totally crushed me la. I really dare not open my mouth to tell him that I want to resign. He's friggin nice that I hate him. URGHHH. Asshole. I thought it'll be rude if I'd just submit my resignation letter to him without informing him. Ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. I can't break the news to him. The shop is shorthanded you see, nobody can read chinese words, and he doesn't like to train newcomers. And I'm his official lunch buyer. He'll be off for reservist in 2 weeks time. Urgh.

My heart seems to be softer than cotton wool. URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7:35 AM

I don't like to log on to msn. End up wasting my life talking shit with folks. It's a good outlet to do some catching up, bitching and grumbling with/to friends.

I have made a very important decision in my life today. I feel happy and sad. Hahahaha.

I have interesting students. I loathe superhyperactivemonkee tutees. So far so good. I dislike those ultrapickysuckykiamsiap parents too. Oh well. I do like my kids. As in, current students. They are my new kiddo pals! :D

I'm so gonna get Monty Python from barnes and nobles. Anyone wants to share the cost with me???

I'm broke but I'm happy.
I'm poor but I'm kind.
I lost but I'm hopeful.
Baby.

I sold the last Jagged Little Pill Acoustic album today! :) If only Pau lets us play whatever we like everytime, I'll make sure Sammi sells! :D

8:59 AM

People change, we gotta accept the truth positively. Miao told me that some time ago. Well sometimes I can't help but feel that some of my good friends change. Can't help but think that they have found better friends, can't help but feel that they don't want to listen to you that much already, because they've found better company, or perhaps a romance. They'd rather find time being with someone new and interesting, than renew the love and joy for the pal. They'd rather try to learn more about someone special, than recalling what they've neglected with regards to the familiar friend. They'd remember about the seasoned friendship, but not what's going on in the life of the friend.

9:59 PM

Only 2 miserable, presentable photos. :D



At my rooftop garden Kren, Prisky, Hehz, Dilys, Rach, Glorphen, Mehgum,Me, Cai, Evanss, Amatan !



We look stupid

8:05 AM

Though he denied his sadness, I could tell that he was a little unhappy cos sales was bad today.

What he said was really inspiring. He asked me to define life. I shook my head, and he went on telling me how people want so much, but not attain what they desire although others think they have all that they need. Complex huh. He was a 6 pointer, a 4 A student, and music diploma(S) holder. He didnt opt for university. All he wanted was happiness. He wants to enjoy life and he doesn't believe that qualifications can make him a more contented and satisfied person. He is a very wise guy. As you can see, I do admire him. Alot. :) I could sense some sadness in his words. But he made so much sense. Maybe he is hoping for more that he just simply can't find. Life is complicated. I hope he is genuinely happy. Then I will be gay too. (hahaha)

I'm gonna splurge on CDs!!!!!!

8:21 AM

You cannot choose who to fall in love with.

12:39 AM

I really wanna watch Brokeback Mount. Damn the age restriction. I'm into gays now, and it is so wrong. Hahahaha. I told my student that if he is not gonna pay attention to me during my lesson, I shall quit and he'll end up with no tutor. He went all teary and nearly burst into tears. I feel mean but he is the only kid that gets on my nerves during tuition. So we made a deal in the end, I say if he doesn't get 80-85 marks for his chinese test this term, I shall quit teaching him. I realised that though the pay and location might be friggin good, if the student is friggin hard to teach, it is seriously not worthy of my effort. Oh wellssss. Days are passing so quickly, don't you think so? It's already mid-week, and thursday tomorrow. It'll be another gay gramo day ahead! :):) Soon it'll be a gay weekend again. Good times zzzzzooms pass. :)



I'm starting to enjoy reading novels. Yes yes, something is seriously wrong with me. I'm into fashion too! I really have gone mad. Muahaa

12:24 AM

I have insomnia since last week. Haven't been sleeping well. I think about alot of stuff, and I can't seem to reduce the amount of stuff that I think about.

It's Valentines' day today. I have never celebrated this occasion. Haah well I ever celebrate this day with pals. And hours ago with A21 girls. But never with a lover. I still think about special people who came and left. I do like to feel special in the eyes of others.

Once he said he was really bored at work, and he started carving my name on an eraser. He even made a box out of styrofoam to place the eraser in. The box resembled an oven, and his masterpiece turned out very presentable. It was the sweetest gift I've ever received. He didn't mind waking up earlier for work so he can accompany to school, he didnt want to go home, but to his sister's flat, because it was near my place, which means he can send me home. And he will follow me home. All the way home. And we'll end up sitting at the bus stop, chatting all the way. He will bug me to take photo, though I would reject him because I don't look as good as him in photos. I taught him how to read notes, while he coached me on the drums. Well, many good memories I have to admit. But I truly believe that nothing lasts forever. I'm not sad, really. I'm pretty happy now, with special people there to touch me with the sweetest words and gestures. Telling me how capable I can be, if I am willing to try. To try all ways to make me smile after a bad day. To care to ask about my busy life. To give me the best that he can offer to me so many times. I'm happy enough. :) And I hope this feeling will last... for some time.


Happy Valentines' Day to my lovely friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

9:32 AM

Fun schitt today. Could die laughing at each other. Yes yes, the spastic gang of 04A21. The lovely goosessssss! :) Love the soccer session with rac, dilys cai and mehgum. We could die screaming. Mehgum's ass keep hitting mine. Haah. I'm talking about table soccer in my garden by the way.

:D

Everybody is special in their own way. And funny. We have so much to catch up on. I miss all of them. Feeling high now haah. Hope pris pris joins me at gramo :D


I love girls of A21!!!!!!!!

8:15 AM

I was called back to gramo to work, cos kim and ily had to collect their results, and dearest Pau was on leave. There were only 3 people working today, and business was quite good. Very busy. Very happy. But I really should quit and focus on more important things, i.e. my music education and students.

Today is her birthday!!! :D She replied my sms! :) I sound like a lesbian right. Hah. Whatever.


:D


I don't know what else to say. I feel old. I'm an adult now. Bad things that happen to me makes me a stronger person. I'm glad that I get to learn something new each day. I wanna grow in wisdom. :)


Happy happy I'm so happy!


yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

8:25 AM

While I try (so hard) to recover from the number of shockss I've got since the start of this year, I think I may never recover from them. Because they really scare me. Reality bites. I don't know what I'll encounter next, life is so unpredictable, that it gets freaky. Stop giving me shocks. Give me surprises which can melt my shockadelic heart. Can you give me that? Hmm. I guess only some can :)

7:55 AM

This customer left a tin of begawan solo butter cookies in our shop on sat night and called up to ask if it was still around, silly kim told her that it was still in our shop. Yes yes it was in our shop but we opened it up to eat, so poor Pau had to go get a new tin to compensate. Haha. We really shouldn't kope our customers' belongings.

I'm gonna get my musical dvds, yes yes that andrew lloyd webber collection, and beatles boxset! I hope nobody buys them from my outlet. Anyway, I really should start ordering stuff from amazon, like what my colleagues are doing. There are so many stuff I want ay.

I told him I was a lesbian, so he said, "Oh really, so we're on the same frequency!" I could see the joy in his eyes, hahaha. And he said he could tell that I was one. -_- . .. . . Oh crap. Then kim and I continued bluffing him, he believed us. Haah. And all through the night at work, they (kim and him) were talking about guys. I nearly died listening to all the schitt. Haha.

Oh wells. We knocked off and I accompanied Pau to buy his supper on this rainy night. :) Talked about alof of stuff while waiting for the bus. He advised me to study first, work later, though he chose the opposite after his As. I can't seem to make up my mind. Hmm.


I have tendency to quit my jobs, I've realised. But I love my colleagues now! The sucky one has transferred to other outlet, there's a new guy who's kinda weird but has great taste in music, other than that, the rest are perfectly insane and gay. Hahaha. I don't bitch as much as the two bimbs (kim and him), and I don't talk about my boyfriend, unlike (kim and him), but we're all crazy and we love to slack.


I love gramo folks :):):):):):):)

12:50 AM

I wanted to blog about something happy. But I've changed my mind. I'm here to tell you about a scrawny kid.

Yes, the scrawny kid walked home from heartland mall to hougang point, because he claimed that he couldn't locate a public phone, so he couldn't dial up and ask his parents which bus can take him home. And so he walked. And walked. And walked. I have no idea how long he took, but I definitely had a clear picture of the distance he walked. It was distance of two NEL MRT stations. And this scrawny kid was none other than........ my tiny brother.

Yes I pity him. It's so friggin far. He has alot of money in his wallet. But maybe all he lack was brains. I don't know. I scolded him. I asked him why is he so stupid. Stupid Stupid. I was choking when I scolded him. In fact I was almost in tears. I pity this kid who doesn't open his mouth to ask for help. He's my brother and I can't help him. I feel horrid. I hope he'll change and not be ten thousand times more introvert than his elder sister.

God please change him.

7:41 AM